Cancer

Well my Daddy was diagnosed with prostate cancer the last part of april/ 1st part of march, almost to the dya of my Mom's accident last year. The cancer is also in his hip and in his lower back. It's stage 4 and terminal. The doctors have given him hormon therapy and have given him surgery that should both slow the cancer and pro-long his life! The one doctor told him he has 18 months to 4 years.. and the actaul oncologist refuses to give a time frame and just wants to play it by ear! I am not going to lie, I really wasn't that suprised when I found out! Did it hurt, heck yes! I am sure my heart broke a little when my mom told me. But in all honesty I always thought my Dad would get cancer, I always thought it would be lung or mouth cancer from smoking.

My dad has chosen not to do Chemo and may or may not do some radation therapy depending on how the hormone therapy works out! My dad wishes to live as full as life as possible without the horrible side effects of modern medicine that would be very unlikely to cure him. I am trying to respect his wishes and not be slefish and tell him to fight, to fight for me, my son and my mom!!!

The first thing that ran across my mind was Kamron. Kamron LOVES his papa so much and at first all I wanted to do was protect him from the possible "future hurt". I immediatly puched that thought away and move on to I hope Kamron gets to know his papa as well as possible and gets to spend as much time with him as possible! I hope that in the next few months my dad's pain goes away or is at least lessened so he can be a bit more mobile. I want him to be able to get back down on the floor and sit and play with Kamron.

I am so sad that such a proud man has to be humbled with such a horrible diease. I hope that through all of this my father's heart may be softened so that when the time comes he will be willing to accept the gospel. I would love more that anything for that to happen in this life, but if not I pray it will happen in the next! I know that heavenly father will take care of it on the other side. I am so glad that if it comes to that, that my husband will be able to do the temple work for him!

I love my dady soo much and I hope that the next months and years are as great as the rest of his life, I hope that I can get closer to him and get to know him better. I hope that I am able to spend more time with him. Mostly I wish him comfort!

With all of this going on Garrett and I decided it was best that I change jobs so that Kamron wasn't such a burden on my mom, and also so we could spend more time as a family! So yesterday was my last day at Claires and tomorrow I will start back at Citifinancial!! I am excited to be able to do things as a family and to be able to tuck my little man in every night! It was a very hard decision to make with many pros and a few cons with each job. Garrett got two ne accounts at work and has been wokring like crazy! We dont see him much during the weekdays so it will be nice to be a fmaily on the weekends. I pray that I made the right decision for the right reason and the lord will continue to provide me with secure employement!

Kamron is getting so big, it is hard to believe he will be 2 in a few months!! He is talking pretty wel (when he wants to0) and is learning so quickly. He loves to talk about animals, and make animal noises, he loves his colors ( I think yellow is his fav, or at least to say), and he loves to sing. His favorite song is Twinkle Twinkle little star. It was my favorite when I was little too. My dad would sing it to me every day and let my sit on his lap and drive the car home from daycare! He loves to throw balls and to play on bikes and anything that had to do with cars! Kamron is such a ham and we love to be around him soooo much! We have a very busy summer planned and I hope to be much better about updating the blog!